I couldn’t let my son go to school this morning.

I couldn’t.

I froze inside as I turned toward the school on the back roads of TN

The rain was misty and the clouds a dull whitish gray

I couldn’t do it.

I kept looking in the rear view mirror adoring him, his life

Noah, a boy that is gone was 6

He is not riding to school today–Logan was–I am so grateful–I am so sad

Tears fell as I turned around

I couldn’t do it though I am miles and miles away

Untouched -but haunted by the reality of such horror such pain such injustice

I am sick

I am sad

I am a mother in mourning

I am mourning for those mothers and fathers, sisters and brothers who are ……..

I am a twin, Noah was a twin, his sister doesn’t know how he died

I hope it’s a very long time until she finds out



your with Santa now and your God


Author: openlifestudio

I am a self taught photographer and mixed media artist with a degree from the North Carolina School of the Arts in classical theatre performance. Stage was my first love and brought me into the world art while photography is what made me want to stay. I am married to superman, and am the mother of three little super-ducks. I studied creative writing at the Univeristy of Tn and classical drama at the NC School of the Arts, and a Masters in Education with concentration of inclusion and curriculum. I've liived in NYC and LA for the past decade and moved back to TN for some home cooking and back yard fun . I spend most of my days getting little ones through life and playing in my studio. I sell my work through different venues and am really happy where I find myself these days. I love to drink a bottle of wine (with my hubby) coupled with extra cheddar blast goldfish! Having kids has changed my life, the arts has shaped my life, and my soulmate continues everyday to walk through my life beside me. What else could a country city girl like me need.

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