I don’t typically post one post after another, but this moment presented itself to me so I must follow it through.
LIFE IS FLEETING!
I am sure of this and I am ALWAYS amazed at its power and truth!
I was posting my last post and suddenly I did something and everything I had written was gone except what you saw on the last post.
I had written so much more and couldn’t remember a damn thing when it came time to do it all over again! I suddenly felt VERY frustrated and even pissed.
The words that flooded up from my heart out through my fingers onto the keypad were never more. For what ever reason there was no auto save when I hit the back button it took me back as if I had never written those words at all.
I was stunned. I was shocked. I was suddenly confused. What the hell? What just happened?
I felt like a college student who suddenly couldn’t find their thesis.
Big deal ,chill out Steph, it’s just words, it’s just a blog, start over, I said to myself. But I couldn’t it wouldn’t be the same!
They were NOT just words, they were words of the MOMENT, my moment! damn it and I can’t get them back!
You see, I write mostly off the cuff, from my subconsciousness and rather quickly. I don’t write drafts or spend a lot of time choosing the perfect word, I just write what comes to mind and edit occasionally.
After hitting the back button five times and searching my desktop for another open page I realized the gig was up it was gone. I HAD to start over no matter how much I tried to resist.
Then comes the epiphany!
What was left on the page was the image of the iris bud and the end of my thoughts. which WAS the beginning! OMG! Crazy! Sudden clarity!
I felt myself get wider I felt my SELF OPEN up a little wider.
What a nice way to start this morning and this day!
I am suddenly filled with creative energy and gratitude for it ALL!