I don’t typically post one  post after another, but this moment presented itself to me so I must follow it through.


I am sure of this and I am ALWAYS amazed at its power and truth!

I was posting my last post and suddenly I did something and everything I had written was gone except what you saw on the last post.

I had written so much more and couldn’t remember a damn thing when it came time to do it all over again!  I suddenly felt VERY frustrated and even pissed.

The words that flooded up from my heart out through my fingers onto the keypad were never more.  For what ever reason there was no auto save when I hit the back button it took me back as if I had never written those words at all.

I was stunned.  I was shocked. I was suddenly confused.  What the hell? What just happened?

I felt like a college student who suddenly couldn’t find their thesis.

Big deal ,chill out Steph, it’s just words, it’s just a blog, start over, I said to myself.  But I couldn’t it wouldn’t be the same!

They were NOT just words, they were words of the MOMENT, my moment! damn it and I can’t get them back!

You see, I write mostly off the cuff, from my subconsciousness and rather quickly.  I don’t write drafts or spend a lot of time choosing the perfect word, I just write what comes to mind and edit occasionally.

After hitting the back button five times and searching my desktop for another open page I realized the gig was up it was gone.  I HAD to start over no matter how much I tried to resist.

Then comes the epiphany!

What was left on the page was the image of the iris bud and the end of my thoughts. which WAS the beginning!  OMG! Crazy! Sudden clarity!

I felt myself get wider I felt my SELF OPEN up a little wider.

What a nice way to start this morning and this day!

I am suddenly filled with creative energy and gratitude for it ALL!


Author: openlifestudio

I am a self taught photographer and mixed media artist with a degree from the North Carolina School of the Arts in classical theatre performance. Stage was my first love and brought me into the world art while photography is what made me want to stay. I am married to superman, and am the mother of three little super-ducks. I studied creative writing at the Univeristy of Tn and classical drama at the NC School of the Arts, and a Masters in Education with concentration of inclusion and curriculum. I've liived in NYC and LA for the past decade and moved back to TN for some home cooking and back yard fun . I spend most of my days getting little ones through life and playing in my studio. I sell my work through different venues and am really happy where I find myself these days. I love to drink a bottle of wine (with my hubby) coupled with extra cheddar blast goldfish! Having kids has changed my life, the arts has shaped my life, and my soulmate continues everyday to walk through my life beside me. What else could a country city girl like me need.

2 thoughts on “EPIPHANY”

  1. This just happened to me this morning as I was posting! I laughed aloud as I read your post. 🙂

    But your re-do was wonderful, a work of the moment and of new beginnings. Have a great day! Lisa

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