There is a confident beauty looking back at me in this picture.
It is one of the very first pictures I took more than three years ago when I stepped into the world of photography.
I was amazed at the results considering my “newness”.
I have an obsession when it comes to Spring.
Blooming, coming to life, handing out colors, marketing the show that is about to begin.
When the show starts I stop.
I notice. I breathe.
I know that when I get busy with everyday life that I can find a focus that is so narrow that I don’t bother to turn my head-left or right-up or down.
Looking straight forward with that determined gaze is so “American”.
Focus is needed to achieve your dreams, but I have realized that the dream is ALL around me. It is me. It envelopes me like a fog, it is something that surrounds my every experience. It comes with me everywhere like my shadow.
I think a lot about things such as “mindfulness” “oneness” walking around “awake.”
I glide light on my feet when I do.
I feel secure in my skin when I notice something that IS.
I breathe like a sleeping baby when I take the time to OPEN my eyes and see what is going on around me.
I am aware.
I can’t help but focus on this “mindfulness” I find myself in.
The title of the blog is a quote from Emily Dickenson. She gave us so many amazing “truths” in words it’s hard to pick just on quote. I find this quote one of best.
“Beauty is not caused it is”
WOW–there is really no better way to put it.
I say this and I relax into that “someone” I want to be.
I see what is moving all around me, constant fleeting movement–life–beauty.
I have a very hectic everyday routine right now.
I struggle with this daily.
I sometimes wake up and wonder if I can do it all over again.
But, once the coffee kicks in and I get my brain going I realize that there is no other choice.
Life is happening and I can get IN or get OUT.
Don’t get me wrong I am not always Polly Anna looking back at life in the face.
I have times where I scream up to the clouds and say why me?
Creative living is the only thing that gets me through these moments.
I OPEN my self up and take in what is being sent my way.
The universe is so very full of surprises.
It offers so many moments for free interpretation.
I know somewhere in all this beauty that IS sits, patiently waiting with a gentle all knowing smile, with arms out saying, “you finally got here, now enjoy”